The Beginning of, the Beginning….

25 Nov

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Today I was asked the question that I have been asked more times that I can remember over the last 13 months.

“How is your foot?”

For the first time, I answered.

“It’s fixed”

It’s been fixed for over a month now, but its not been something I was comfortable in saying out loud. I guess it’s because through all of the issues and treatment with my foot, there has always been an element of guess work. Often the appearance on the surface of the foot gave us an educated guess of what lie beneath.

Also, I guess that I didn’t want to temp fate. Not that I believe in fate but given the slightly elongated journey to getting a fixed foot, I wanted a period of stability and for it to all look ok and CRP markers to stay down before I could admit to myself that my foot is actually fixed.

So, I have discovered a slight chink in my resilience, which is not easy to admit…

I can take any shit that is thrown at me on the chin, tackle it head on and not bat an eyelid.

  • Ulcer
  • Bone Infection
  • Self-administered IV antibiotics
  • Long distance travel with all of the above
  • 32 weeks out of the 54 of treatment were on some form of antibiotics

All of the above did not phase me. However, tell me that everything is ok, and I can’t get my head round it.

Weird?

Well, I never claimed to be normal, did I?

Anyway…..

That’s it right?

Grumps is fixed?…

Well, yes.

But….

If I’m totally honest with myself (which I actively avoid being) my foot is fixed, but I am not.

Everyone kept telling me how much I have been through the last 13 months.

I still genuinely think it wasn’t as bad as I may have made it sound, and it now seems to have gone fairly quickly. I do have to admit though that whilst I was not in the greatest of shape (total underestimation) and not the fittest (again, really not), by body is properly screwed now…

The lack of exercise whilst resting my foot means I have next to zero fitness. I’ve put on some weight and my insulin resistance has gone up. My BG management has been ok but running a bit higher than I used to partly due to the above with the infection and antibiotics thrown in. Kind of a vicious circle that needs to be broken now. Especially that I have in my mind more now that I need to what I can to minimise my risk of further related conditions.

So, my foot is definitely 100% fixed, and I have my head around that now, but I am not fully recovered.

However, I will be!!!

The resilience that saw me through the bit of a foot issue will see me through to recovery.

I am not planning to train for a marathon, I have a foot infection, not a lobotomy….

I’m not planning some epic sporting event. I’m way too lazy.

I am planning to make a few changes to ensure that I am #FitBy50 (you can credit @anniecoops for that one).

But first…….Pizza!

Live Long and Bolus

Grumps.

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2 Responses to “The Beginning of, the Beginning….”

  1. Rick Phillips November 27, 2018 at 2:09 am #

    I hope someday I can say fixed for my right foot. Mine started last December and I have been in a boot / cast/ cart all of them for nine of the last 12 months.

    • grumpypumper November 27, 2018 at 5:45 am #

      I hope that you can too. It’s a long road to getting this sort of thing sorted out.

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