New Year’s Revolutions……….

29 Dec

New Year’s Revolutions……….

No. I’ve not got the spelling of “Resolutions” wrong (although my spelling is total crap).

This is not a review of my 2016 you will be pleased to know. I can sum my year up in two simple pictures…….



Almost another New Year….

Well. Actually yet another year but with just a different number isn’t it?

Is it starting anew, or just starting the cycle again?

I gave up New Year Resolutions years ago as I never stuck to them, just ended up pretty much where I was at the start of every year. More like Revolutions not Resolutions….

Don’t get me wrong. Being pretty much in the same place is ok with me. I quite like where I am and how things are going. Of course there are things I’d like to change….

  • Get Fit
  • Lose Weight
  • Get Rich
  • Frown More
  • Be the next James Bond
  • Save the world (let’s face it, we have really fucked it up)

You know. Realistic and achievable stuff……

Which is why my resolutions never got carried through maybe? Unachievable. Or in the short term at least.

The other reason is that I don’t pay attention to what works for me.

Take my Diabetes (actually, don’t take it. You wouldn’t want a bit of Grumps in you…..). End goal is to ride the London Surrey 100 (finally after 2 years of deferring my place).

If I want to drop my A1c, or just get more time in range, I set achievable targets (7 day average, then 14 day, 30 day etc.) so I can see progress. This keeps me motivated and the end result is the goal I was aiming for.

So that’s my approach for 2017!


  • No alcohol in January. Have signed up for Dryathalon and its an achievable quick win.
  • Walk 15,000 steps per day (actually use the fitbit for more than telling the time).
  • Take my bike off the garage wall (I’m not promising ill ride it but at least it will be like weight lifting 1 rep….)
  • Find an exercise I enjoy (NO! not that one! 10 seconds “max sprint” isn’t going to get me fit….)
  • Do what I said I would do and stop making excuses for why I didn’t!…….

We will see how it works out I guess

Grumpy New Year.

Live Long and Bolus.




Driving My Diabetes…….

2 Jun

My name’s Jeff Grumps, and it’s been 12 months since my last blog post.

Ok. That’s confession out of the way!

Well, the quick version. You’d be here for months if I owned up to everything…….


My son turned 17 last month, and in the UK that means he can learn to drive a car. The foolish child young man is has blind faith in his father (according his birth certificate, that’s me) and asked me to take him out for his first few lessons……..

I’ve no issue with this as (you already know this) I’m offensively unstressable.

However, it’s been a bit of an education. After decades of driving, I just get in a car and drive. It’s all fairly automatic, I go through the motions. Use the functions and features of the available to me (steering, gears, sat-nav, parking sensors, indicators). Take in all the information that’s around me (traffic flow, cyclists, road signs the dick head other driver that cut me up on the roundabout). I put all this together and calculate the best thing to do in that given situation. The end result is that by a combination of luck, judgement and calculated(ish) risks taking, I arrive safely at the other end. Some journeys are easier than others, some longer, but in the long term the outcome is the same. I’m safe and where I need to be.

In order to show the boy how to drive, I have had to be more focussed on my own driving, eliminate any bad habits. The result being that I’m more careful and possible safer (or at least less unsafe).

Kind of sounds like my life with Type1……..

It’s all fairly automatic for me. I have the tools and information I need to put it together and calculate the best thing to do in that given situation. The end result is that by a combination of luck, judgement and calculated(ish) risks taking, I arrive safely at the other end.

Its time I have a period where I am bit more to be more focussed on my own diabetes, eliminate any “bad” habits. The result should be that I’m more careful and possible safer (or at least less unsafe).

For me, in life, with my diabetes:

Some journeys are easier than others, some longer, but in the long term the outcome is the same. I’m safe and where I need to be.

Live Long and Bolus


Reflections on 50 yrs with T1 Diabetes 1965 – 2015

30 Oct

Guest blog post by Lis Warren

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After living with Type 1 for 5 decades, this year I’m celebrating becoming a Diabetes UK and Joslin Medallist.  Throughout the year I’ve been reminiscing and reflecting on how things have been and at times, wondering why and how I’ve been so lucky to arrive here!  I’d like to share some thoughts that have helped me stay optimistic and well in the hope that others may discover things to help them on their way.  I’ve made plenty of mistakes, so feel incredibly privileged to be a Diabetes Medallist, but thankfully learning from errors has usually spurred me on, so…

    • Attitude is key.  It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him off, embrace your diabetes, care for it and make it your friend!  It upsets me to see how fearful many people are for their future with Type 1.  If you hang on to them, fear and anger can be crippling emotions.  I hope and pray that those newly diagnosed, their doctors, friends and family can work through, manage and come to terms with negative feelings so that they can feel free, accepting of and most importantly, at peace with diabetes.
  • The UK’s NHS is FANTASTIC!  I’d be long gone without the hard work and dedication of its many brilliant staff.  I’m also grateful for the things I’ve learned over the years from Diabetes UK’s Balance magazine (my only source of info, other than hospital visits, in my first 40 Type 1 years!), from JDRF and more recently, getting in touch with INPUT to learn about diabetes technology. My heartfelt thanks go to you all for your help over the years.  
  • After a short period of wondering when a cure would arrive (always ‘next year’) I realised that it wasn’t worth dwelling on this.  However, taking part in diabetes research is one of the most interesting and enjoyable things I’ve done.  It’s incredibly inspiring to meet enthusiastic researchers, to learn things about diabetes you’d never otherwise discover and to meet and have fun chatting with other volunteers.  I wish someone had told me how rewarding this could be decades ago – even straightforward diabetes market research can be great fun!
  • In some ways not much has altered in 50 yrs.  Attitudes have improved, the doctor/patient relationship has changed and new equipment and technology have made some things easier, but I still do exactly what I did in the 1960s i.e. try to match insulin delivered with carbs eaten without losing consciousness en route!  (Though in the 60s-80s, I don’t recall discussions about dose adjustment without ‘permission’, you did it because it worked and kept schtum.)
  • The only real Game Changers for me have been the invention of home blood testing in the 80s, then continuous glucose monitoring (CGM) sensors.  CGM has taught me far more about the body’s reaction to exercise, illness, insulin, food, and stress than any other diabetes education or tool. Using CGM is like switching a search light on in a pitch-black world – it was something I’d fantasised about for years. It provides life transforming info about where to place your next step.  And despite the huge burden it places on me both financially and in lost sleep (those bloody alarms) it possibly keeps me ticking as I’ve experienced some life-threatening hypos over the decades.  My gratitude to researchers for these tools is absolute.
  • I don’t think diabetes should be blamed for everything that goes wrong in one’s life.  It’s tempting to assume that every physical or emotional challenge is caused by it, and many non-specialist healthcare professionals also make this mistake.  If you’re not vigilant, making diabetes your scapegoat may happen unconsciously.  The stigma and bad press it sometimes gets may persist or worsen if it’s blamed for all one’s physical or emotional ills.
  • I’m really grateful that as a teen, people around me never led me to believe that Type 1 could hold me back.  I adopted the stoic ‘grin and bear it’ attitude prevalent in my northern upbringing!  I’ve certainly had periods of depression over the years, but I honestly don’t think I’ve ever felt sorry for myself.  I believe that when youngsters with Type 1 reach a suitable level of maturity, they’ll thrive if well taught, supported and encouraged to take control.  I think it’s unwise to molly coddle or support a self-pitying attitude.
  • Diabetes gives more than it takes away.  I’m grateful for the character traits it forced me to develop: resilience, acceptance of things you can’t change, determination, an ability to put health-related things into perspective, being sufficiently well organised to remember to inject then eat regularly, empathy for others with far worse conditions, and finally a modicum of self control around food (though this one took decades to develop!).
  • I’m grateful that the high prevalence of eating difficulties in Type 1s (estimated at 40%) has finally been recognised and specialist support is now becoming more accessible.  Thankfully I learned to count carbs from day one as a teen.  But sadly, my personality type led to slavish weighing and measuring of carbs and a focus on body image, planting the seed for a difficult relationship with food that took years to resolve.  For people with Type 1, poor eating habits can both kill (as in DKA) and save your life (as in treating hypos).  In susceptible folk like me, food can become a problem.  I used it to manage emotions and succumbed to yo-yo dieting, which made things very hard and contributed to periods of very poor diabetes management.  A great deal of hard work put this to rest.
  • Social media and the Diabetes Online Community (#DOC) has transformed the lives of people with diabetes by giving easy access to more and better information, as well as fantastic peer support.  Joining the #DOC was cathartic for me, as I’d never had close contact with other people with diabetes during my first 40 yrs of having Type 1.  This experience now motivates me to put all my energy into meeting others both on and offline.  I now realise how isolated one feels when you can’t chat with others, exchange views, follow new developments and laugh about the daft stuff we all do.
  • Most people with diabetes seem to have a really great sense of humour.  I love the laughter that’s present at every diabetes get-together I’ve ever attended.  It’s a great club to belong to and you guys are just fantastic people – thank you all.
  • It’s my view that science has a long way to go to match the miracles performed by a healthy body with carbohydrates and insulin.  Blood sugar management, even with CGM, remains a very Dark Art.  Intuition, experience, judgement and some guesswork are always required!  I often make mistakes, but I do trust my intuition and remain pretty wary of insulin bolus calculators.
  • And last but possibly most important, I’m hugely grateful for the love, help, support and Glucagon administrating ‘skills’ (and consequent bruises!) given by my saintly husband, John.  I could not have won these two medals without him by my side – particularly at night when the hypos took over.  And I suspect like me, he’s also extremely grateful for CGM, as he’ll hopefully never have to inject Glucagon again (he’s terrified of needles!).

Lis Warren 27 Oct 2015

Time Bomb?……

4 Aug


I talk to myself. A lot. The outcome of which is usually the same. I ignore myself and just carry on with life in the haphazard way that I have embraced since I started pretending to be an adult.

 So as I stumble (almost drunkenly) to my 21st Diaversary on August 26th of this year I asked myself a question…..

 Q – So, after almost 21 years of T1D, how are you doing?

A – Alright

Q – No. Seriously! How are you doing??

A – Be serious! You know I never take anything seriously!!

Q – Isn’t it about time you did?!!

A – Oh ok. If we are going to play at being adult then I’m doing ok. Ticking along ok.

Q – Good. But. Is ticking along ok good enough for the next 21 years?

A – What you mean????

Q – Are you ticking along ok, or a ticking time bomb?

A – Ah Shit. Good question…………


I had to let that one sink in for a bit. The constant childish belief that I am immortal and that nothing, including and especially T1D, will take me down is always one of the strongest thoughts at the front of my mind. Closely followed by “fuck it lets have a drink”. So I had to get past those first. Yes, after Id had a drink……

Of course the actually answer is YES, I could do with making a few changes, but haven’t I been here before? Oh yes. I have. In the run up to every Diaversary for the last 21 years!

Then what do I change and why will it be different? What will motivate me to stick at it rather than go back to old habits after a day or two?

This is how it’s been in the past:-

Think about your heath – I don’t need to. I’m Immortal!

Reduce the amount you snack – Sod off, I like food.

Cut down how much you drink – Don’t make me come over there and hurt you!

Exercise more (ok at all) – I would, but I’m too tired all the time (oh, and lazy)

Loose a bit of weight – Yeh, but I’d have to do all the above, and clearly that’s not happening……


So after almost 21 years (did I mention it’s almost 21 years?) I was forced to take a long look at myself, over a glass or two of single malt of course, as to what motivates me to actually do anything to improve my heath (given that I’m immortal). I have to have short term goals and see progress as I go. So getting in shape is out as it takes too long. Anyway, I’m already in shape. Round!

So what one thing would I like to change that isn’t in the above list of things I’ve tried before? Well. I do have high insulin resistance (1u of insulin drops me by only 0.7mmol). It’s been progressive over time and if it continues I’ll have more insulin in my system than blood. So maybe I can try to reduce that? How? A bit less snacking in the evening and eating less ready meals and processed food. I can see my Total Daily Dose on my pump every day and see progress day on day. Worth a go?

Well, I started a week and a half ago. In the evening if I’m close to my target of less than 80u per day I don’t snack. It’s working ok as I don’t want to “mess up” that days total. If I have a few units “to spare” then I have a small snack. Either way I’m snacking less. In the first week I reduced my insulin intake by 110u on the week before. As a result of snacking less and eating better food I’ve lost a couple of pounds in weight too.

If I can stick at this I hope that it will go full circle. Reducing TDD, reduces snacking, reduces weight thus reducing insulin resistance…….


All I know is that after almost 21 years (I know! Surprise!!) Type 1 Diabetes has never beaten me, and it never will. After all. I’m immortal…….


Live Long and Bolus


The Gremlin Inside Me

15 May

Diabetes Blog Week Wild Card – Diabetes Personified

“If you could personify your diabetes or that of your loved one, what would it be like?  What would it look like, what would it say, what kind of personality would it have?  Use your imagination and feel free to use images, drawings, words, music, etc. to describe it.”

Basically. It looks like this……..


Live Long and Bolus


Junk In My Trunk

13 May

Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, oh, no, no


Day 3 – Clean it out.

Ok. So I guess the first thing that needs cleaning up is my filthy mind. No way is that happening! Without innuendo, I am nothing…….

I don’t think that I have any emotional junk when it comes to my Diabetes, so nothing to clear out there. As I said yesterday  I have no secrets, nothing I worry about when it comes to my Diabetes.

That only leaves something physical. I could do with clearing out my “meter cupboard” as I have a few that I will never use. In the UK we are lucky enough to get BG meters for free if you are Type1 or Type2 on insulin. So as soon as I see a new meter I just HAVE to try it #MeterGeek

Thing is I hardly ever end up moving to use the new one. Let’s face it, you are never going to be able to check out a new meter enough with just 10 test strips!

Why the hell do they send just 10 test strips and 10 lancets for the new “pain free, comfortable, soft, and delicate” thing that sticks a bloody hole in your finger! After all, that’s less than 2 days BG checks and at least 10 years of lancets for me. Kind of the wrong way round to what I need o evaluate a bit of kit!

So not a huge amount of physical stuff to clear out either……

Instead I will go through and check all of my back-up kit. I keep spare stuff in the car, at home, in my work bag and in a locker at work. Thinking about it, some of it has been there for a long time and never used as it’s there “Just in Case”. I bet some of it is out of date, meter batteries flat or worse corroded in the meter. I would be pretty crap to have my back up kit fail when I needed it. Now that would make me Grumpy!!

Live Long and Bolus


Open Book

12 May


The Ugly


Day 2 – Keep it to Yourself.

Tough one today and short.



There isn’t anything I keep secret about my Diabetes. It’s not really who I am. This may of course change, but to date I’m an open book.

I’ll tell you everything you want to know about:

  • My Diagnosis
  • My attitude to living with Diabetes
  • My A1c
  • My Complications
  • Dinking of course
  • Even sex and Diabetes (that won’t take me long at all…….)

If I did have secrets there is one person(s) I would tell them to. My Health Care Professional! If I’m not open and honest with them, then how can I expect to build the relationships that I need to ensure that I get the care I need? The may not like what they hear, or the things that I do, but its not their job to judge me.

“I never fear death or dying

I only fear never trying

I am whatever I am,

Only God can judge me, now”

Live Long and Bolus